waiting to wait.
the wait is on again. we have presented to another expectant mama. again our criteria shifted a little. this one came with long, honest discussions between a husband & wife. a tired, dissatsifed husband & wife. we are shifting our thoughts in this process. gravitating to excitement + happiness + hopefulness.
we are on the same team.
profile was supposed to be presented wednesday, which quickly turned to thursday. touched base today and bam withholding to present till tuesday. i had to ask our consultant casey, is this normal? to have so many glitches every time we present? we have discovered that there are a lot of cracks in the adoption process and unfortunately they are unveiling themselves every situation we get. she reassures me this is normal.
in case you don’t know, i love to communicate. i love details. i love to be informed. i love to learn. i love to know. the case worker that we are currently working with is
A W E S O M E.
i have reached out to her multiple times with hesitation and she welcomes me to touch base & ask questions. this is a new part of the process that i really enjoy. it definitely makes the wait to wait aspect more manageable.
while we wait to wait…. again… i feel desensitized. i feel it harder + harder to give my whole heart yet it’s almost even harder to withdraw + holding back emotionally. so for now, i feel desensitized.
again, i say this now.
I’ll be broken again if we hear another “no”.
no way around it right? even if I put on my cool shades 😎
short n sweet. these are my thoughts. my feelings for now. the wait to wait.